THIS IS MY OFFICIAL ENTRY TO LEVY’S CONTEST!

When i think of how my life goes by, I could not help but to cry and smile.  I live a crazy life, melo-dramatic if i may call it. I was left by my mother when i was three months old and was reared by my grand mother. I thought that life was complete with just her but things become rough when she died and i was left alone with my father who was left by his second family.

Life with him is hard. There is weeks  that my life is in hell and i thought i’m going to be crazy. i could not count the times he hit me and i just want to die that time and i have tried not just one.  I thought of jumping on a high building or even in the river near by.  I have no one to call “my friend” because i’m unreasonable,emotional and not easy to be with. I’m just a person who lives inside my own box, i’ve tried to run and i did run and i thought it was over but it was not but it just worsen my problem and i have to go back rushing because i was afraid.

When the time i was in college i met my now then husband and i saw him as my exit to my life and my father could not forgive me for doing that but giving your heart is a new thing and it takes time to heal it’s wound. I have forgiven my father and i don’t want to look back because i don’t want to feel that pain and anger again.

I thought that having a baby was very easy, just like the other teenage mother around me but my belief was wrong. I have been through two pains of dealing with miscarriage and the loss of hope for having a child but came 2007 a year of bitter sweet memories, after coping with the loss of a love one and enjoying the happiness of our dream church marriage and come again another loss of my  father, a miracle unexpectedly struck our lives and in the middle of my grief, a new joy and new beginning came up in our door. When I found out I was pregnant, it was like a roller coaster of emotions.” I took a pregnancy test and break the news to my husband.  I was very nervous than anything, afraid of losing again my baby and thinking the finances that would come along the way. As the idea grew in me, I became more excited than ever. In my excitement I bring out again all my pregnancy books from the storage and started reading it all over again. It was very fulfilling.

our peachy

To tell you honestly, i really don’t know what should i feel then, it was quite a whirlwind events and I am in the end of the line and there is no turning back.  But soon, I realized that my life is only in the beginning of a new and wonderful journey called Motherhood.  When Peachy was born, all my anxiety was eventually faded. I have felt something  I haven’t felt before, suddenly, my life had its own meaning, my heart began beating again with happiness and my lips can’t help but smile.

We have named her Prosperity Melandria, because she is our little treasure that brings us joy and happiness.  When I first held her in my arms, all the miseries, all the pain melt away. This little angel wrapped in a blanket with its smiling face and tiny hands that immediately clasped my fingers gives me the reason to believe and levitate in so much happiness.

But that happiness was once relive when my baby boy came in to my life.  I felt fulfilled, the pain and loss i have suffered through the years are all gone and i have a more forgiving heart.

Now, when i think about the things that happened to me, I can jump as high as I could ” not on the river of course” , a jump of joy because i have overcome all the circumstances and trials and I’m now happy and satisfied with my own family.  Perseverance and patience is really a great deal, master them in your life and you can achieve whatever you wanted in your life and you can definitely say LIFE MAKES ME LEVYTATE!

life makes me levitate